Re assurance
when I know my best friend and me are in the same boat; actually, when I learn, half the globe is in the same boat; actually, even when an aunty on the road is in the same road…its reassuring
- my mum’s number flashing on my cell
- as I pass the temple on way to work
- a hot cup of coffee warming my palms
- my supervisor’s leave application
- my car …especially in the morning, waiting for me to get in and lock in the gears
- my cell phone in my bag...after much groping & panic
- a wintry day feeling warm
- sinking into comfy shoes
- afternoon coffee at home
- when the television rain disappears, after much banging
- a pile of crisp laundry a wet nose!

Friends
- friends are curently family
- also, some times a duty…to be kept in touch with
- many I have lost touch with; and this is a regret
- an affrimation of the person I am

Love
- is elsuive
- am not sure of its dimensions ; its drivers
- don’t knowif its comfort; or madness

Men
- are beyond me
- have to be older than me
- not always good; but some of them are angels
- am confused about them

Work
- is stressful
- challenging
- eats up all my day
- comes first as as a priority, despite not being one
- is not really my competency
- has to give me a sense of being a performer

Wine
- makes me think of my mum
- and other classy stuff

Fun
- playing with dogs
- going for a week end holiday
- a long week end
- spending time with a favourite person
- watching a movie either on a lap top or 70 mm
- cracking a great ppt (presentations, you ignoramus-es!!)
- getting better / ahead of someone
- gettin lots of social calls
- neemrana

Views
- stand up for what is right
- punctuality at work is more important than punctuality at any other point… even quitting work on time is punctuality
- appear smart even if you arent – but get your figures right
- be kind to really old people and animals
- don’t be taken for granted
- give grief to others, if they are being unjust to you
- stand tall; speak clear; believe in Karma

Come live with me and be my love... Christopher Marlowe

Come live with me and be my love,
And we will all the pleasures prove
That valleys, groves, hills, and fields,
Woods or steepy mountain yields.
And we will sit upon the rocks,
Seeing the shepherds feed their flocks,
By shallow rivers to whose falls
Melodious birds sing madrigals.
And I will make thee beds of roses
And a thousand fragrant posies,
A cap of flowers, and a kirtle
Embroidered all with leaves of myrtle;
A gown made of the finest wool
Which from our pretty lambs we pull;
Fair lined slippers for the cold,
With buckles of th purest gold;
A belt of straw and ivy buds,
With coral clasps and amber studs:
And if these pleasures may thee move,
Come live with me and be my love.
The shepherds' swains shall dance and sing
For thy delight each May morning:
If these delights thy mind may move

Rain tree
Dripped in water beads…proud in its lushness
A tree spreads to kiss a heavy sky

Siam Calling ...
I recently did a trip to Bangkok and my fun messages:
Thai are young, carefree and un perturbed people
They are simple in thought and action – and don’t spend time making life difficult either for themselves or others
You can look smart even if you are not pencil slim, in branded clothes and with big eyes and a sharp pointed nose
Hospitality comes easily to the Thai … Food is exceptional and served with generosity and low pretense …
Do try their pepper crab and sea basket @ “Sea Food International…Sukhumvit”… its an old pretty house …gracious and charming and tucked away from the main line traffic
A lot of smiles and “swadeeka” make up for the lack of any coherent conversation
Do see “Anna and the King of Siam”…if you haven’t already … and see the version with Yul Brynner & Kate Hepburn Shopping is amazing … except you cant wear their clothes…an Indian “S” equals a Thai “XL”…sad but true. But you can shop for trinkets, knick knacks, cosmetics, shoes and sex.

i am thinking about...
Rather mundane stufff… where life is headed; when am I going to get married; what about my job? What about my friends?
i said..
please don’t worry about not attending a program … to a colleague who was not invited
i want to...to quit my job; go to triveni for lazy lunches; sleep late; not feel out of control
i wish...
I could run away
i hear...
that you are competent worker – and a decent person and nice looking and men find you attractive
i wonder...
about what its going to be like when I am 40. have i found the right job? Do I miss the task of my old job, but not the evnviroment?. Have I made the right choice?
i regret...
not having listened to my parents (sometimes) & not kept in touch with some dear friends & perhaps hurt some people
i am...
a little girl who still believes in fairy talesi dance...thinking everyone is watching me
i sing...
only english songs coz I feel hindi songs brings out my bad accent. But I also hum while washing
i cry...
easily on little things. And sometimes cant on big things.
i am not always...
original
i make with my hands...
sometimes comfort and love
i write...
because it fulfils my concept of me
i confuse...
Between right and left and I have to always stick my hand out to know.Also between grief for a concept or genuine love for a person
i need…
a fairy tale to unfold now

Numbers.

I am 29. I work 5 days a week. My telephone number is 10 digits. My salary is in 6 figures. My office is 2 kms away from home. I have only 1 car and 2 bank accounts. I have 4 weeks to launch a radio channel. My waist size needs to drop by 2 inches. I can’t have more than 1 drink. I am rushing for a meeting at 4.30 pm. I live 99 lives!!

Words on a random day…

Cold. Coffee. Meeting. Stress. Launch. Mum. Home. Call. Best friend. Lunch. Café. Boss. Dreams. No. call. Say so. Don’t do it. Week end. Chill – should I go for a movie- no movies – maybe theatre si more creative. Very happy. Need to do planning. Pamper. Indulge. When will it happen? When will the bell ring? What next. Dont know. Purple bag. Forever. Want a new perfume. Should I go for the neemrana sale. But I wanted to go lingerie shopping? Also theatre. Should call sanghita. Need to go check out a venue for a research. Tiresome. Hotels make me want to go visit them. Money – happy about the share money. Desperate for an Omega – shall pick it before Bangkok. On migods! photos for the VISA. Enough.

Actually, Smile …

A stretch of muscles and skin
Triggered by love, money or a kin
Starts a day or closes a day
Sometimes just keeps troubles @ bay
But loveliest of em all is the hidden smile
Which lurks …but yet not seen by a mile
It springs forth in the most magical ways
On sunny, rainy gloomy or happy days

It’s a smile between you and me
When you fumble; or spill your tea
It spreads …
When you clobber me hard,
While I pretend am hopping mad!
It widens …
When I throw a tantrum
N you look thrown off your fulcrum
It gurgles
When I park myself on your bed
& order you around feigning to be bone dead
It escapes
When I feel your chub
& declare you to be lard in a tub
But it really really resounds
Actually…Each time you are around …